Aytuvova Khurshi, Prose

Aytuvova Khurshi, Prose
LOVE STORY 
 
 "O Allah, make all my dreams and goals come true as soon as possible, I still want to be a great person, I have a lot of work to do, a career... please don't get distracted from studying, don't fall in love..." But for some reason, Laila writes these words in her diary, and "he" does not leave her imagination. He always kept a diary and wrote about his plans and goals. He never wanted to fall in love. Because he knew well what a person he loved would fall into, he had seen it in the person of his sister. But something happened and he met her on the way to study. They met and talked twice. On the third date, the guy asks Laila for her phone number. Normally, Laila didn't talk to anyone and didn't trust guys, but she gave her number to this guy with some feeling. In this way, correspondence and talks continued. The guy was not that handsome, just an ordinary boy. Both studied at the same university. That's what love is, but somehow he won Laila's heart. There were no scheduled meetings, they only communicated virtually. Laila felt that she was becoming more and more attached to him. Should he stop talking, but he couldn't. He was waiting for her to call him. The guy is also good, he also loved Laila, but not from Laila. He seemed different to Laila, good, sincere, kind, as if there was no better person in the world than him. Their characters also liked each other. But they haven't told each other that they love each other yet. Their love was like unconditional love. But Laila found it necessary to put an end to everything one night.
  I'm distracted from reading, let's stop talking, don't write anymore, he said goodbye. He didn't write back saying that it's okay. It's been 3 months since they met. In that short time, he felt that he was in love. He went out and it was a quiet night. It seemed to Laila that this period had passed like a dream. The only full moon in the sky was looking at Laila. Laila took a deep breath, a drop of tears fell from her eyes, she felt relieved. He thought that he did the right thing and now everything will be fine. He went in and lay down. But he couldn't sleep until morning and came out full. He had a severe headache when he stood up. He didn't drink tea either, he had no appetite. Yesterday's incident did not go away from his imagination. His heart hurt, he was very depressed, he even cried for 3-4 days without regaining consciousness. Her mother comforted her by saying, "My daughter, what's wrong with you, come to yourself" and said that first love is not always true. However, Laila really fell in love, she became different. He also thought that this situation would pass, and said that he would be fine if he went to university. And while studying, when her friends talked about their boyfriends, she remembered "him" again. The guy didn't write back either, he was waiting for her calls.
So, a month passed in agony, crying and thinking. At the beginning of March, while watching social networks, he noticed that he had written it. He was so happy, so happy that he found what he had lost like a young child. He answered immediately. Those correspondences and conversations continued. This time a real love story began. Both are happy. They even went to study together. But he had never met before studying. The young man begged to come around, Laila would not relent. Gradually their relationship deepened. They also helped each other in university textbooks. Laila's mother was worried about this. He did not trust his daughter to anyone. To be sure, his mother did not like the young man very much. "Daughter, you don't know what kind of boy he is, keep your promise to us, you still need to study, develop, and travel the world, that's what your father dreams of," he advised. Laila really felt that she did not think about studying. He also saw that there were many plans left in his diary. Gradually, the young man began to talk about marriage. According to him, his mother died without him. Only the two brothers lived in the house where the sisters got married. His father is abroad. Because of this, the relatives are getting involved in the wedding movement this year because a woman should come to the family.
Laila felt sad again. He does not plan to get married yet. Not even ready for family life. She thought that it would be appropriate to talk with the guy for a couple of years, understand each other, and then get married. If he marries her, his goals will definitely remain. Because there is no woman, household chores and raising children fall on her. Now he was realizing that he had made a mistake. His mother was right. But how does he refuse him. After all, he convinced her and made so many promises. He said he loved... Laila is left in the dark, should she choose love or study?! And if he didn't say no, he would not want to lose her like before, and he would be crushed thinking that he would miss her. He thought a lot why lovers can never be together. He told the guy to wait and explained. But he also said that he could not wait without help. He said that it was hard for him to do all the work. And he asked her for the last time, "Will you marry me?" After a long hesitation, Laila answered him "No". He wanted her to be happy because she loved him from the bottom of her heart. Laila was afraid of making him unhappy becuse she did not believe in herself. He prayed that he would get married, have a family, have children, and be happy. At the end of the summer, they broke up without any reason. Now for life. The guy called a lot recently, but Laila didn't answer, she kept her heart aching. Then the guy stopped calling Laila, realizing his purpose. Thus their love ended. Laila's love could not be said to have ended, hers continued secretly. After that, she didn't meet another guy. Ok he is married, ok he is happy now, it was unclear to Laila. No matter how many years have passed, if he listens to the music that is related to him or the words he said when it rains, he remembers the sweet memories he had with him. After that incident, Laila never loved anyone as much as she loved him. He became the first love of his life. She met a lot of guys, but she didn't like any of them. He also graduated. He developed in every way, in every field, his dreams came true one after another, he learned languages, went to the international arena, got a job. Currently, he received the prayers of his parents and devoted himself to them. But he hasn't started a family yet.
 
Aytuvova Khurshi was born on June 5, 2002 in Saykhunabad district of Syrdarya region. He graduated from Gulistan State University, Faculty of Philology, majoring in Russian. Official delegate of several forums, member of international organizations, Global Education Ambassador, SPSC ambassador. He is a member of the "Juntos por las Letras" international writer's association of Argentina. His creative works have appeared in international newspapers and magazines. Also, his stories were published in the national anthology "Languages of Creativity" and in the republican magazine "Creators". Currently, he is a Russian language teacher at school No. 4 in the district.