JOSÉ LUIS LÓPEZ
Someone I Never Was
Dr. HC José Luis López
Puerto Rico
5/24/2025
Remembering last night that I had to reflect on what I was going to do with myself. And I had to remember from the moment I came into the world.
Was I someone at that moment?
Honestly, no. I was always a stumbling block for my family, even at birth. I was the product of an affair from which I was undesirable, and who would not be registered because I was an illegitimate child, lacking identity, and being a bastard.
Being an adult's mistake, I had to pay the price for not being able to have a baptism, to which I had no right because I didn't come from a functional family. If I felt undervalued before, I continue to live the same way, because the new generation can't make an intelligent deduction.
Being raised by an older family, because Mom could never start a new family because she was an illegitimate child, because the person who made her a mother humiliated her and decided to discard her. That's how I experienced it, the same way Mom did.
I searched for that identity I never had, but everything was obvious, I wasn't valued, and I was a victim of family bullying because I wasn't seen as a man, but I didn't feel like a man. I did like doing women's things and played girls' games. However, what I could accomplish as an individual was insignificant to me.
I came to understand that I no longer had any value anywhere, and I had to create my own circus of bullying to be acceptable. I always loved being with girls and was rejected by boys. All the games I liked were for girls, and I disliked everything about boys.
And yes, I thought about falling into delinquency, and I even vandalized public telephones, and I was punished by being expelled from school. Yes, my foster grandparents had to intervene because Mom had no control over my upbringing. We were behaviorally difficult.
Tragically, I had to be the victim of sexual harassment by a man, and I felt so good about myself that it provoked what I never should have been: homosexual, as a minor. Yes, I was punished because Mom got that individual fired from his job, but at home I was despised for having instigated the incident.
Was psychological help suggested to me? I never wanted it because it wasn't relevant to cover up an existence that had already arrived prematurely. So I kept quiet and accepted my new life.
Someone I never was. Everything is a process each person must acquire to acquire the experience of being an authentic thought of some ordinary individual who had no intention of coming into the world and who, due to the missteps of adults, was given an unfinished and irreplaceable life.
Artist's Legacy
Dr. HC José Luis López
Puerto Rico
9/4/2025
I write to describe my feelings as a human being who was endowed with certain abilities and whose presence supported my artistic work. There are times when I seek a moment of humanity and analysis of who I should continue to be and if I deserve anything of value.
There is a lot of uncertainty, a lot of pain. I try to express what bleeds through me, and what mortifies me because writing lyrics without school or reason for existence, there is no security, nor is there empathy for my thoughts.
I see myself in a cellblock because I don't like what I perceive of the world, and people don't want to accept anything in life because they are always defending what they believe is right and disrespecting it. I can't assimilate so much behavior of inaction, insensitivity, much less infamy, slander, hypocrisy, and lies.
Maybe I don't belong in this world because humanity isn't authentic, it doesn't allow itself to serve others, and they're always in discord, in conflict, because there's no self-respect, because there's no coherence or creativity in their life process.
Honestly, I don't force myself to write anything because there's no reasonable option for me to decide what my destiny will be in this artist's legacy. There is a person who exists, who saw and described their perception in this present time, and there were people along the way who made their cultural work gratifying and validating.
Bullets with a Voice
Dr. HC José Luis López
Puerto Rico
March 13, 2025
Why do you hurt me?
Why so much resentment?
Why is there a sense of extermination?
Why does humanity seek reputation through bullets?
Every device that reaches every victim is the product of a decision confined to unacceptable, unrecognizable, and irrefutable conduct. It doesn't matter who the individual was who used the weapon to take a life or cause harm, but it's evident that there was no understanding when they fired the shot.
Yes, for every person who is pierced by bullets, there is no guarantee of health and death is imminent, and if there is no way of thinking and rescue, it is useless. Any person who lacks coherent communication of their anger or their unconscious thoughts loses the reality of why they commit the crime.
Certainly, laws exist to provide support and protection to the population, but there is no awareness of acting to enable peace or hope for every living being who has the right to live. It is undeniable that we all suffer from being subjected to the inability to show mercy and be benevolence.
There is no compelling solution that prevents society from accepting that there are people with indignation, with incorruptible ties, and with feelings of aberration and atrocities in order to feel important in the world. Unfortunately, nothing can be done to control the perception of the planet, but no one can be forced to change if there is no will to do so.
Dr. Jose Luis Lopez
Puerto Rico
Born June 8th, 1971
Studies:
Graduated from Secretary Sciences
Obtained Associate Degree in Office Automation, Puerto Rico Junior College, Rio Piedras. (1993)
Bachelor Degree in Executive Secretary, Interamerican University of Puerto Rico, Metropolitan Campus (1998).
Awards:
Honorary Doctorate, International Forum of Creativity and Humanity, (Morocco)
Honorary Doctorate, International Academy of Arts and Literature (Bangladesh)
Union Commissioner of Puerto Rico (International Federation of the Arts and Literature of the World) Yemen
Honorary doctorate Victoria University (Iraq)
Honorary doctorate WOSA (Yemen Civilization Academy, Yemen)
Doctor of Humanities (honorary doctorate/Nigeria)
International Trap Magazine (Algeria)
Global Dr. B.R. Ambedkar Award 2024 (India)
Writer registered in the First Volume of the Great Universal Culture Encyclopedia (Global Leadership Alliance) Mexico
Recipient of the Golden Bridge Award (World Foundation/Russia)
Honorary Doctorate from Arts and Literature International Diamond Academy (Hungary)
Honorary Doctorate from Good Samaritan Global Peace Academy (Nigeria)
Member of Puerto Rico International Copy Protection Board (Brasil)
Editor Puerto Rico Newspaper Daily Global Nation (Bangladesh)
Published in the Newspaper Daily Global Nation (Bangladesh)
First Children's Literature Magazine (anthology/USA)
Participation virtually Wazda International Poetry Festival (Morocco)
Lido Del'annima Award Cultural Excellence (Italy)
Published in Moroccan newspaper Ahkabar7
Published in Greek Magazine Polismagazino
Membership of the General Sheik of the Tribe and General Dean of the Sadat Al-Zahidiya Al Bir Kadriya (Iraq Kurdistan)
Ambassador Puerto Rico New Barack Poetic Saturdays (Spain)
Statehood Award of Literature Mrs. América del Río (Universal Poetic Utopia International Cultural Collective/México)
Statehood Award of Literature Mr. Aldorriquelmo de Atahualco (Universal Poetic Utopia International Cultural Collective
/México)
Statehood Award of Literature Mrs. Yolanda Matías García (Universal Poetic Utopia International Cultural Collective
/México)
Special Award Mstr. Raul Galvan Gonzalez RAIAL 2024 (Royal International Academy of Arts and Literature/México)
Professor Ciro Artemio Constantino Álvarez Award 2024 (México)
Dr. Francisco Xavier Ramírez Sánchez Award 2024 (Mil Mentes Organization México)
Appointment International Director Awards Committee of Puerto Rico, Senior Honorary Certificate, and Peace Ambassador. Good Samaritan Theological Seminary (Nigeria)
International Award Mezquite Hassan II (International Forum Creativity and Humanism) Morocco
Anointed member Bona fide (World Institute for the Peace) Nigeria/Pakistan
Ph. Dr. (International Federation of Writers Poets and Artists) Venezuela
Honorary Doctorate (Creativity and Humanism Forum) Morocco
Ambassador Creativity and Humanism Forum (Morocco)
President Royal International Academy of Arts and Literature Puerto Rico (Mexico)
Publications:
Anthologies:
Dreams of Naked Skin (three editions/México)
Orfeu Magazine (Albania)
Word and Skin Magazine (Puerto Rico)
(1) Mist and(2) Glacier (Indonesia)
Parnaso Letters, Narrative and Poems(Spain)
Feather and Sun, Tribute to Augusto Roa Bastos, Rohayhu, Voices of the World, Mother's Knitting of Life, Feather and Sun, Tribute to Maria Talavera (Paraguay)
Between Poetry and Verses (Puerto Rico)
Humanity Magazine Global (Venezuela)
Refining Poetry (Litterateur Organization, India)
World Contemporary Poets Volume 2 (Bangladesh)
Painting (pictures):
Title: Woman and the Garden (WOSA, Civilization Academy Yemen) Yemen
Title: Storms and hurricanes (International Literary Association "Creative Tribune") Germany
Declamation:
Twice invited to Luna 9 Radio (FEM International Magazine) New Jersey USA, Radio América Visión (Chile), Entre Amigos (Spain), Radio La Enamorada (Mexico), Ecos Poético (Colombia)
Virtual Magazines:
Prodigy Life Magazine (Bosnia), Monthly Magazine OPA POETS (West Bengal, India), Magazine Obulous (Spain), Letras de Parnaso (Spain), Netrazol Magazine (Portugal), Royal International Academy of Arts and Literature (14 editions, Mexico), Azahar (Spain), Círculo Literario de Escritores ( Mexico).
Prepared Angela Kosta